Monday, September 8, 2008

Today is supposed to be the opening of the blog, but well, I kinda got the design only 50% up. Which exist as thoughts within my head. So... well, I'll only post stuff, but not update the design just yet. I need couple of drawings done, manipulated digitally, and many many stuff to fully get my design up. The fact that my desktop is spoilt doesn't help the problem :(

Just a summary for the holidays. It hasn't been a good holiday, many unlucky things happened, including the spoiling of my desktop, buying wrong part to fix it, and the failure to obtain a correct part, at least during this period. There were many many other bad things that I rather not discuss, but overall, this period of holiday is probably my worst holiday ever!

During the holiday, many things came up to my mind too, and I'm going to discuss one of them.

There was one day, where I was at a friend(RC)'s house, the "Singapore Grid Girl" show happen to be on air. It's a show where people(or rather babes), go on TV to compete to be the grid girl for the upcoming Singapore Grand Prix. I happened to hear the age of one of a girl, and it happened to be 18 years old.

Suddenly, a flash came into my mind.

"18? Isn't that the same age as me?"

I finally realised I've grown up already. There are many many successful individuals making their mark at this age. What am I doing? I am wasting my time to purely study, and my result aren't very good either. Really, WHAT AM I DOING?

To be successful, or even to be near it, I am at a ripe age to start. But, looking at me right now, I am just another guy. I'm not thinking out of the box, I'm not doing anything special. I do have ideas now and then, but there is no action!

I realised what exactly is the problem. There is no motivation to start. Even for many things, there exist motivation to learn, and I do actually learn fast. But for many things I do, I always stagnant at a certain point. That is when I am satisfied. This is not good at all! At the most, I can only be above average. I can never excel this way! I realised I must change.

Well, for me, I'll start with computer stuff, like programming and designing. Different people have different passion, different ideas. Some of my friends has started too. Have you?